Not autistic enough

Wow, I never thought I'd hear someone say that to me about my son. So even though he's on the spectrum, he's not autistic enough to qualify for any extra services. BS, I say! I ran into some guys who work for regional center the other night at work though, and they said he should qualify. So here I am waiting for the secretary to call me back about when I can pick up a copy of my son's report to submit to Regional. Ugh, this is so tiresome. I have to go here and go there, and get this and get that. Why can't someone just realize that he still needs help. I'm trying to help my son be a functioning person, and everyone is denying me resources to help him accomplish that. I'll get there eventually, but until then the fight continues.

Lucky me

So lately I've been feeling like my feet aren't touching the ground. I'm ecstatic and loving this feeling. The last 2 nights that I worked, I made awesome money. And last night, I bought 1 $5 raffle ticket and won a raider's jersey. My boss told me I should play the lotto, and now I'm starting to think I should too. My mom always told me that when God closes a door he opens a window, and this is my window. With the money I've made I was able to pay for the venue for the boys' birthday party and buy them an amazing present. I've just lucked out lately and I really hope it continues... at least for a while anyway!

One of those weird moods

So lately I've been doing a ton of thinking, and I've come to the conclusion that I've changed. I can't say it's for the better, but I'm different. I get sick of all the high school drama that some adults bring, it's MADDENING!!!! Some people just don't grow up. At work, there's so much tension between the girls and talking behind backs. Then there's the whole talking bad about other girls to the customers. I feel like I have to be everyone's mother and always be the voice of reason. Geez, just grow up already!

I've even begun to feel like I've outgrown a few of my friendships lately too. Things just aren't the same. I've found myself resenting comments that they've made, not just towards me, but towards other friends. And everyone is so adamant that their right, everyone else is wrong; and it comes off as really pushy. I don't like pushy, to each their own. I'm really tired of the whole tit for tat aspect of some friendships I have either, and I find myself distancing from them. I feel somewhat free now, even though I feel guilty for doing it. I know mentally though, it's the best thing for me. Okay, that's enough of my moral ramblings.... I'm getting off my soap box.

Crazy night!

So it's almost 3 in the morning and I find myself sitting at the computer blogging instead of sleeping... what's wrong with me?!!! Ugh, it was one of "those" nights. I had to work (stupid Sunday club night), and it was a hard night. My feet are ready to fall off they hurt so bad, and I'm wide awake from all the coffee I drank earlier at Ihop. Mmmm, coffee! Great, now I want coffee. I really don't know where I'm going with this, but it's 3 in the morning and I'm wired, so enjoy my ramblings. Maybe I'll finish that black mitten I've been doing for my kids swap. Eh, maybe tomorrow.

For now, I think I'll amuse myself with a list of things I have to do tomorrow. Take pictures of Ollie's old clothes to sell, go to the market, clean the garage, take pictures of whatever were selling from the garage, clean the bathroom, buy the boys some undershirts and new underwear, and buy a pump for my stroller tires. Now that I look at this list, I'm sure there's a few things I can put off till the middle of the week lol. Okay, I've had it! I'm going to go annoy Ray by flopping around the bed until I fall asleep.