Jessica the seamstress!

So lately since the weather has been super nice, I've gotten into the habit of making dresses for Olivia. So far I've made 3, but 1 of them doesn't fit her because I didn't take her measurements (just sort of eyeballed her), but the others fit just fine. I'm so excited to be able to do this for my baby girl, but sort of sad that there's nothing I can really make the boys. In the winter I plan on making them some pajama pants, but that's about all we think would look good on them that's homemade. Besides the dresses, I made us some curtains. There a bit off, but you can't really tell. I got a little lazy with them too, and instead of making panels at the top to hang them from rings I just sewed the 2 layers together. They serve their purpose and that's all that counts.

So this last week I've been sick with a bad cold and had no energy. I feel a little better this week, but I have all 3 kids because of Easter vacation. I'm sort of sad that I won't be able to sew that much this week, but we've been having a blast together! I've been super impressed with myself and my creative ability lately, and I feel like I'm fitting that stereotype of the sahm or old fashioned mom (whichever it is) but I actually like that stereotype. Anyways enough jabbering on for today, enjoy the pictures of Olivia's dresses!

Shaving the dog

Today is such a pretty day, I think I'll shave my dogs. It makes a mess and is a pain to do, but my dogs are so happy when it's over. I'll take pictures when I'm done and post them. This will be my second time doing it on my own, and I love it!

The joys of mommy-dom

My darling baby girl, has been such a banshee for the past few weeks and now it's evident why. We've officially got teefers! She got her first one the other day, and a second popped up this morning. It's all so exciting all over again!

Fake

Today is just really one of those days where I am just unsure of everything. I'm tired of things being the way they are, and I feel like I'm falling apart. Nothing seems real or right today. I guess the best way to say it, is that I feel like I'm just faking my way through this life. I try hard to stay positive, and do what I have to do. I'm tired of feeling negative and pessismistic because someone else does. I don't want anyone to give anything up that they don't want for me. I do what I do in life because it feels right to me, those are the morals I carry. I know I'm just rambling on, but either way it feels good to get some of it out.

Completely Random

So this last week, I've ben trying desperately to get Bobby into preschool. He's been on the waiting list for state preschool for months now, but some of the moms at mommy and me told me about a universal preschool. So after much hassle, he starts Monday. He was supposed to start this past Friday, but of course they needed more papers. So Monday it is. With all the driving around I've been doing this week though, I feel so weak! I really would just like a day to myself to rest, read or crochet. Basically just lie around and do something for me. I have like no energy, but I have to keep pushing myself. Between taking and picking up Raymond from school, there's mommy and me, and taking and picking up Bobby from preschool now, Olivia's clingyness, cooking, and then there's cleaning. I need another me!

Besides all of that, I've been feeling like a bit of a failure or like I did something wrong. Raymond's already been diagnosed with ADHD and ODD. We really feel like he also has a mild form of autism, but since our insurance changed I have to start all over at getting a full diagnosis. And now with Bobby having a speech delay, it's a bit overwhelming. And I hate to admit it, but I think my Bobby has a bit of a learning disability as well. I take each day as they come and play everything by ear, but somedays just really take a toll on me. I try my best to give all 3 the time and attention they need, but it's getting harder with the more we find out. Patience is a virtue that I'm desperately trying to maintain. I try not to think about any of this, and not to focus on any of it..... but it's really hard not to feel like there might have been something I could have done to prevent all of this. Since I just started babbling on, I'm off for now!

soup weather

It was pouring rain last night and all I could think about was, yes it's finally soup weather. It's so cold and just ewww outside right now. Last night I made home made chicken noodle soup, and tonight I think I'm going to make albondigas. Maybe that's too much soup and I'll just make tacos. Either way were having something with hamburger meat, because I already took it out of the freezer. The rain does something to me, it makes me terribly lazy but terribly cuddly at the same time. I want to lay in bed all day when it rains and just cuddle with my kids. And since it's been so cold I'm shuddering at the thought of paying our gas bill this month. I've been running the heater all day everday at like 75. I hate being cold. I can tolerate being hot by wearing less clothes, but cold just irks me. Maybe today I'll try not to run the heater, because I'll be running the oven. I still have to finish making my Wubbas' monthly supply of baby food. *sigh* I think I have a love-hate relationship with the rain....

Baby Food

I really haven't had much time lately to do any of my little hobbies. Mainly because I've been trying to catch up on baby food. I really don't like to run out, which I was so close to doing lol. I have enough now for a few more weeks, but I could still stand to make more so that Olivia gets a better variety. So for now, she's got plenty of sweet potatoes, squash, peas, bananas, and applesauce. I have some pictures just waiting to be picked up at CVS, that need to be scrapbooked. I've been dying to make Olivia a shopping cart cover with this amazing fabric I have. I have a few little projects that still need working on. And now to find the time to do some of these things!